Everything was relatively smooth sailing for Kelly Osbourne when the country went into lockdown due to the pandemic — but by "the end" of that period, she found herself falling off the wagon after four years of sobriety.
"I don’t know why my nervous breakdown happened at the end of the lockdown, I made it all the way through, everything was great and my life was perfect," she recalled during her appearance on Extra. "I’m that girl that when everything is going great I need to f**k it up a little and make everything a little bit worse in my life."
"I am an addict and had thought that I had enough time under my belt and I could drink like a normal person, and it turns out I cannot and I will never be normal," noted the Fashion Police alum. "I don’t know why I even tried it. It’s not for me and it took me a matter of days and I was like done, not doing this."
"I got all of my career goals happening ... and then I got happy cause I got this incredible boyfriend and everything in my life is so great and I’m like, 'I’m not an addict anymore...'" she said of what she thinks triggered her. "On top of that pandemic fever ... It all just got too much."
Despite the slip-up, Osbourne doesn't feel hopeless like she has in the past. Instead, she decided to share her story to show others in the same situation that nobody's perfect.
"This is something I am going to battle for the rest of my life. It’s never going to be easy," the star declared. "Through being accountable and owning your own journey and sharing what you can go through you can help other people. That’s why I came clean. I could have sat here and nobody would know."
The Project Runway Junior judge also shared that staying sober for the past few years was what inspired her to get in better shape (after undergoing a gastric sleeve procedure, she dropped over 90 pounds).
"That's the whole thing. Everyone was so, like, caught up in how I look. They never asked me how I felt," she shared. "And the truth is I was so f**king happy and I felt amazing."
"I did it for me. I did it because I wanted to live," Osbourne expressed. "What I saw in the mirror ... I wanted the body to match the mind, because I spent so much time working on my mind and then I spent a year working on my body and now it's about the soul."